I spontaneously had to step away from blogging and work for the last part of July as I had a lot of things on my mind, which to be honest were taking up a lot more space in my head then anything to do with work. I honestly have been struggling to bring myself back to focusing on work a lot and if I was to tell you the amount of times I have actually sat in front of a full blog schedule but with no words, no desire or inspiration to write about anything that is happening you would be very surprised. It is not because I have lost passion for it or because I cannot be bothered. It is because this July has been full of life lessons that are far more important than any other kind of news and so more deeper than words can actually describe.
After hearing some pretty devastating and horrible news a few weeks back, I had a reel running through my head of last conversations, facial expressions, laughter, hugs and could not bring myself to think what I was hearing and then read through my phone was actually true. It was one of those flash things that you often hear people describe when they hear bad news or something horrible happens... where you think, really "your life flashes before your eyes?" Well, turns out, there is real meaning behind that saying, which has the most profound effect in brining you straight back into the present moment in an instant. After a few hours past, I could not sleep and got this really funny feeling where everything just seemed so surreal, because when someone passes who is in your circle, whatever part of the circle it may be and is on your wave length it has a profound and impacting effect, that I believe will never change.
I got to thinking about inspiration because even though her friendship was special to me, as all my friendships are, it became more apparent then ever. Over the last two years I have learnt so much more about what authentic and true friendship means. I am a relatively open and very giving person, who is transparent and I do not like bullshit so have learnt the art of quality controlling my friendships especially who I opened up to. She was a friend who I opened up to as did she, which I will always cherish as she was truly a pure example at living life to the fullest of your capabilities. I always knew this and I always appreciated her support so much, even her unwavering faith in me and my business, which to me meant so much. I know it was true as we shared the no bullshit policy, no pitty, no crap, just raw truth. It becomes so interesting how those moments are so much more precious once they are the only ones you have left because she no longer with us.
It is for these reasons and many more that she is truly without a doubt an inspiration and why everyone she encountered in her journey has called her inspirational. I know without a doubt, her humble and modest personality would not believe that I am writing this right now, as she would always say, "come on Jeanette " when I did tell her in person... but it is undoubtedly true. She showed many of us so much strength of character and what life is truly about... also to really NOT sweat the small stuff, life is just way too short.
Loss is a funny thing, and not in normal sense of the word, it is something that grounds you profoundly and quickly. It shakes up the little world around you just like when you turn a snow globe upside down. It allows the flakes to fall into completely different positions and configurations which ultimately change your outlook, perspective and path. It is for this reason that I have been saying that the world will never be the same again, for hundreds of us that were beyond privileged to have shared moments with her.
It also shows up very quickly who are the people you can count on for support and the unwavering strength that can come from those who truly love and want to be there for the ones closest to her, who are hurting so much more than anyone can imagine.
It is for this reason that I will never give up and carry that unwavering faith she had in me forever.
It is so important to love your life, not just on the outside but on the inside, build something that is true for you and do not waste time in going around and being unkind to others. There is no room for it, there is no room for fear, there is only room for love and appreciation.
Do not wait until tomorrow to do what it is you wanted to do today. Time is a very precious thing that too many of us take for granted.
In support and in memory of a special person her family have put together a page for her, as an everyday hero, which you can check out here.
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